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The first Christmas

December 26, 2013

I can’t quite believe I’ve just had Christmas without Mum. I’ve tried so hard today and managed so well but now it’s all over, it’s now that the tears are flowing. And it really hurts. There’s a huge gap. After a lifetime of Christmasses this was the first one I spent without Mum, without my Mum to share it with me. That’s just so immense, so huge. I just can’t come to terms with it right now.

We carried on as normal. I even had some times of great laughter with my niece. We talked about Mum as though that were normal. But it wasn’t normal, she wasn’t there and that’s not right and it’s not fair. She so wanted to be home for Christmas and to spend it with us all. She didn’t get to do that. Why? I don’t know but I really wish she had because Christmas without Mum just doesn’t seem right at all. And right now I’m wondering whether it will ever seem right again.

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Happy Christmas

December 25, 2013

So it’s just turned midnight so is effectively Christmas Day, 2013, although technically, seeing as I haven’t gone to bed yet it’s really still Christmas Eve in my mind, the eve to the first Christmas without Mum. Wow! Just saying that brings tears to my eyes. How can I possibly celebrate Christmas this year without her? How can I be cheerful and smiling and enjoying all the things of Christmas and the promises it foretells?

Quite honestly, I don’t know.

But I think I think that Mum would want me to carry on with Christmas. She would want me to enjoy the day. She wouldn’t want me to be sad thinking about what could have been or even what should have been, we all know this isn’t what we planned or would choose for Christmas 2013. But I can’t think like that, can I? I need to remember those great Christmasses of the past, those happy times with Mum, those special times and things which she did for me. I need to focus on those as best I can.

I won’t forget you this year Mum, you’ll be close by, in my heart. I hope you’re watching down and that you’ll like what you see and that you’ll know that I love you and I miss you and you are not at all forgotten.

Happy Christmas Mum x

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Apologies & Happy Christmas

December 21, 2011

To all those who follow my blog, you’ll have noticed that it has been distinctly lacking in entries for the past few months.  Hmm, not good, is it?

I apologise for the lack of posts, of snippets, of links, of entries about stuff which may or may not interest you greatly.  I’m back on track again now though so expect to be amazed & bewildered by the Reflections blog  in the days to come – or just note that I will be posting entries again sometime soon! 😉

The photo a day challenge came to an end in summer (I know, I failed to last the whole year, but hey ho, what can I say!) but I will be uploading all those images that I never got around to posting, some time over the next couple of weeks.

So all it leaves for me to say for now is: Happy Christmas to each & every one of you.   May you be surrounded by those who you love & care for at this special time of year, may you know the joy of friends and family, recognise how fortunate you are to have them & to be loved and cared for by others, to have those things which mean the most to you and those which we all take for granted, and may you feel the blessings of this special Christmas time of year within your own heart.

Away in a Manager
No crib for a bed
The little Lord Jesus
Lay down his sweet head
The stars in the bright sky
Looked down where he lay
The little Lord Jesus
Asleep on the hay

The cattle are lowing 
The baby awakes
But little Lord Jesus
No crying he makes
I love Thee Lord Jesus
Look down from the sky
And stay by my side
Until morning is nigh

Be near me Lord Jesus
I ask thee to stay
Close by me forever,
And love me I pray
Bless all the dear children
In thy tender care
And fit us for Heaven
To live with Thee there

x

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Time to move on

January 6, 2011

Well I guess the time had to come eventually didn’t it?  And it came today.  The decorations are now down & ready to boxed away for another year  😦 <boo>

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Twelfth night

January 6, 2011

So today is twelfth night, twelve days after Christmas when tradition says we should take down our Christmas decorations.  I hate having to put all the decorations away, the house always looks so bland & empty when I do 😦

It’s not that I believe in luck, or rather the bad luck that legend would have us believe is bestowed on us if we keep them up longer – although I must admit I could really do without bad luck in my life at the moment.  I guess it’s just I’m resigned to the fact that Christmas is now well & truly over.  That season of goodwill is gone & life moves onwards and hopefully upwards.

So tonight I will be taking down the tree & packing it away into its box for another year (actually it’s only for another 11 months really ;)) and putting away all the lights & decorations.  Then I’ll be looking at my living room sadly & wondering how I can brighten it up for the rest of the winter months.

So as a tribute to Christmas, here are some of my photos from this year:

Ok, so there’s a little debate over when Twelfth night actually is, but I’ve always been led to believe it’s the 6th January, the day when neighbouring countries celebrate Epiphany, the arrival of the wise men at Bethlehem.  So I’ve always taken my Twelfth Night to be today, the last day for my decorations until Christmas 2011.

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Candles and Christmas trees (Year in photos 2011)

January 5, 2011

So today might or might not be twelfth night depending on your point of view but more about that tomorrow.  In reality it really is the twelfth night after Christmas.  So today I have 3 photos of the day: one of my Christmas tree and a couple more of my fireplace, all lit up with candles.  I do love candles 🙂

Candles

Fireplace Christmas tree

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a Russian Christmas

January 6, 2009

Ok, I’ve already touched upon a little about the Christian Christmas message, but now it’s time to turn to our Russian Orthodox friends who are just entering the key stages of their Christmas.

So to all of you Russians out there, Happy Christmas. I hope you have a fantastic evening and a good day tomorrow celebrating the festive season in your own unique Russian way. I must admit it sounds very exciting and I am even somewhat jealous of the celebrations which will be taking place.

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And for those of you out there who dont know about the Russian Christmas celebrations, have a read at this to find out more.

Doesnt it sound great?!

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