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When friendships end 

June 30, 2017

I had a strange dream last night. 

I dreamt about someone who used to be a really good friend, someone I was really close to, and with whom I shared thoughts & dreams I’ve never shared with anyone before. I guess it was a unique kind of friendship & it meant a lot to me. Fast forward to today & we’ve not spoken for a couple of years. It’s a shame & I’m disappointed about that, I guess it feels a bit like failure & that mebbe the friendship was one sided. Who knows? All the same I thought I was ok with that & had accepted that they’d moved on & just didn’t have room in their life for me anymore.

So, going back to my dream, well it was one of those nice dreams. Now I’ve never liked the word nice but that’s what it was, nice and comforting & I felt good in my dream & when I woke up too. And that’s when I realised I miss them, despite everything. I’ve had a pretty tough year one way or another & things are difficult at the moment. I guess it’s at times like that that we all need friends & the absence of someone is all the more noticeable. 

But I guess some friends just move on, forget about us & live their lives regardless. That’s a shame. Friends have always been and will always be important to me, not something to just throw away & forget about.  But again, maybe that’s just me?

Miss you! 


Déjà Vu?

January 15, 2010

You’re standing there, minding your own business, doing your own thing, when suddenly WHAM!  BAM! it hits you, you’ve been here before, you’ve done this before, you’ve seen this before.

Have you ever had one of these moments?  Weird huh?!

Yes, I’m referring to that term known as Deja Vu, which in French, literally means “already seen”. A web definition I’ve found says that déjà vu is “the experience of thinking that a new situation had occurred before.”  But what exactly is déjà vu and how on earth does it actually work?

The reason I’m thinking this is because I had one of those moments last night, when I was brushing my teeth! Yeah, I know, we brush our teeth all the time, so course you’ll get déjà vu, but no, that wasnt what it was about.  It was the thought process that I was going through and the things I was looking at in my bathroom at that same time, that made me feel I’d been there before.  And they werent everyday thoughts before you quote that at me, no, they were thoughts that were specific to something which is actually happening right now, so I cant have had them before, can I?

So what was going on?  How could I have experienced that before?  Do we all (or perhaps some of us) have the ability to predict & foresee things?  Perhaps we can foresee our future in dreams?  Perhaps we are actually able to  travel in time but dont realise we’ve done so, except for having senses like these?

Hmm, think I’m going to have to do a little research of my own on this one.

Anyone out there have any suggestions or answers?


A new year, a new me? But what’s wrong with the old one?

January 1, 2010

Ok,  so I’ve written in the past about how I dont believe in making new year resolutions, about why should we have to wait until a specific date to think about making positive changes in our lives.  As we now find ourselves in 2010, a new day, a new week, a new month, a new year, even a new decade, my thoughts havent really changed, however I am using this occasion as a time to reflect & think about my life.

January used to just be another month, well January to be precise, but in the last few years I’ve found myself disliking it.  Perhaps it’s the anticlimax after all the festivities in the past week, or perhaps it’s the sense of fear about the future or regret about the past, or the feeling that I’ve failed somehow or that the world actually expects me to be full of enthusiasm for a new year, in wonderment of what’s to come?   I really dont know.  But this year I want this to be different.  I dont want to spend the next 4 weeks feeling miserable.  I dont want to look back at all the bad things that have happened in the past year.  I dont want to be fearful of what lies ahead.  I just want to be me!  I want to be positive.  I want to be happy.  I want to enjoy my life.

Hmm, so how exactly do I go about that?

To be honest I dont know, but I just heard someone on the radio saying that their new year resolution was to do something special every month.  I think that’s a good place to start.  Plan to do things which are different which make me happy.  Perhaps that’s a good place to start this new year, focusing on doing stuff which brings good feelings?

I really dont know, but that’s where I’m going to start.  Now to start on that list … 🙂


40 winks to a brainwave

August 27, 2009

40winksHave you ever woken up in the middle of the night & had to rush to grab a piece of paper to write down that fantastic idea that came to you in a dream in the middle of the night?  Or perhaps you’ve woken up in the morning just knowing the right solution to a particular problem that you’ve been worrying about?

Well you’re not on your own.  A report suggests that problems are more likely to be solved after a period of sleep, so the old phrase “I’ll sleep on it” does actually hold some truth after all!  Perhaps Orinoco really did know what he was talking about when he had those 40 winks 😉

It’s an interesting issue though.  I wonder just what it is that makes our subconscious selves somewhat more productive than our wake ones.  How can we get that answer when we’re asleep that we cant get when we’re concentrating on it in our woken hours?  Perhaps it’s because everything else is filtered out whilst we’re sleeping?  I dont know, but it’s certainly an interesting thought.


Just believe

February 28, 2009

“Between Austria and Italy, there is a section of the Alps called the Semmering. It is an impossibly steep, very high part of the mountains. They built a train track over these Alps to connect Vienna and Venice. They built these tracks even before there was a train in existence that could make the trip. They built it because they knew some day, the train would come.”

rainbow1These words are taken from “Under the Tuscan Sky“, an adaption of the novel of the same name by Francis Mayes.  I watched the film recently and this particular quote made me stop and think.

How often do we give up on things or never even start them because we cant see how things are going to resolve or turn out the way we hope?  How often do we give up on our dreams, believing they are the foolish desires of our youth, hopes for impossibilities that can never happen?  How often do we cease our prayers for that miracle, that one thing which we truly believe in?

We shouldn’t.  We should pave the way, prepare ourselves and believe in the possibilities of the future, of our futures, of what we can achieve or attain if we are prepared to wait our time.


music CAN change the world

November 19, 2008


I watched a programme last night (how an orchestra saved Venezuela’s children) which really affected me. It was fascinating, informative and inspirational and I really felt it. It was about “El Sistema” – a scheme, for want of a better word, which was born in Venezuela. A scheme which was the dream of one man but which has exacebated into an initiative which is changing the lives of people on a day-to-day basis and is even changing the social fabric of an entire country. Amazing!

childrenEl sistema began with 11 children in a carpark and now over 11,000 youngsters are involved with it. It had a simple aim, that of teaching children music. But that simple aim has become so much more and it is helping to fight poverty by giving children something to believe in. By giving them a way into music that they wouldnt otherwise have, music by means of an orchestra, is becoming a unique instrument for socialising children. These children are finding passion and a belief in themselves that then can have dreams and they can accomplish them. This is even spilling over into other areas of their lives, helping them to do better in other things as well.

In the programme, Alan Yentob went to Venezuela and talked to people who have been influenced by this initiative. Their responses were inspiring and illustrated the profound impact that El Sistema is having on people there.

“music changed the social life of my country”

“when you have a musical instrument, you feel like you’ve got something.”

“if it wasnt for music they’d just be in the house all day”

“we dont play instruments by chance. God gives us all the opportunity to develop our gifts, it’s up to us to respond to the opportunity.”

“This is the future the world needs. 1000s of children playing music.”

The overwhelming belief was that using music in this way is preventing children from falling by the wayside & getting caught up in a life of drugs, theft, poverty and maybe even worse. It is helping them to grow into better people, giving them hope & dreams, and teaching them that hard work can overcome anything.

And the result?

Today music is fully integrated into the life of the country. El Sistema is doing astonishing things with music to change the lives of poor children. It isnt just producing musicians, it’s also training them as human beings.

Now I’m no expert, but I’d like to call myself a musician & I am fairly accomplished. Perhaps that’s why this has really touched home to me. Music really can change people’s lives for the better. This scheme is fantastic, very inspirational. It’s just mind blowing to see how something so simple, so fundamental as learning to play an instrument, something that I perhaps have always taken for granted, can have such a dramatic impact, not just on an individual but on whole communities and even an entire country.

Music can change lives. If you really set you heart on something you can do it. And what an amazing gift to give to a child – music.




October 25, 2008

Do you dream?
Hmm, perhaps I should rephrase that, do you remember your dreams?  And if you do, are they in colour or black & white?

To answer my own questions: yes I dream and yes, sometimes I even remember what my dreams are about – waking up with my heart pounding hard against my chest as fear strikes me or as I remember something particularly unpleasant in the dream.  Then I just want to open my eyes ‘& make sure I stay awake long enough to not fall straight back into that same dreamland.  There have even been times when I’ve had really nice dreams.  I remember one in particular morning when the dream from the night before left me just feeling happy and knowing everything would all turn out right in the end one day – although I must admit I now cant really remember what the dream was about, or any real details just that content & relaxed feeling when I woke up.  I’ve also had dreams when I’ve known I was actually dreaming & yet I’ve somehow felt like I’m watching myself, paralysed and unable to move, and I’ve just been telling myself I’m asleep and I need to wake up NOW!

But do I dream in colour or black & white?  Hmm, well I’ve just woke up from a dream and to be honest I really cant remember what colour the dream was and not matter how hard I try, it’s a question that I’m just not able to answer today.

I read a news article the other day which said that people born before a certain time, whose formative years were before the advent of colour films or televsions, dream in black & white and that those of use born since those days tend to dream in colour.

Unfortunately, much as I’d like to corroborate that, I simply cant!

So my question is, do you dream in colour or in black & white and does that confirm or disprove this theory?

Perhaps you should go back to bed now and get dreaming to find out …

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